Meeting Life And Trouble Copyright all rights reserved to Monica Pereira 2013 Smashwords Edition I try to look to the good things in life, but all I can feel is the bad things in life. I feel as though my heart is running cold and all I can feel is stark emptiness. I look around and see strangers who are clad in black - I can't run to them, in fact they make me want to scream. I want to run away as I face the world, I want to run so far, but the world only stretches so far and in the end I stand with nothing. “I need to get home!” I cry as I readjust my bag and trek forward. Within twenty minutes I reach home, and there I push my bag under my bed. I don't even want to remember school or the walk home, I just want to forget about everything. I sit at my desk and I glare at the wood - I am glad I am at home, but I still don't feel very comfortable. I try to tell my heartbeat to calm down, but it takes a while; there is stiffness that I can't get off my shoulders without breaking my neck, and I feel it. “Knock, knock!” sings my sister Kym as she opens my door. “Hey there!” I cry to Kym as I look at her. “What do you want?” I ask. “How was your day?” asks Kym as she sits on my bed. “It was okay;” I lie as I glare at her. Yes I do want her to move, however after a while I begin to calm down as I stare at Kym who is like me but unlike me. I try to smile as Kym gasps and giggles. “I had a good day!” she declares. “Some boy asked me out!” she says. “Really?” I ask. “Who?” I say. “Oh, just someone;” tells Kym as she glares at me. “A special boy;” she adds. “Lachlan Corma;” she declares. I blink - the boy is a teen who has a bad reputation. I want to know more, however Kym shrugs and pulls a face. “I told him I wasn't available;” she adds before she blinks at me. I know there is a little more inside of her mind but I grow afraid to ask. Kym smiles and shrugs as she looks out the window - the air is still outside and she notices. Kym smiles, draws in a breath, and for a moment I feel her shiver as though she is afraid. I want to blame the world - there is something wrong! “Are you okay?” I ask as I glare at Kym. “Sure;” she mutters as she looks to me a little distanced, a little grown up. I notice the spark and I grow afraid - there is something under Kym's eyes and it has turned her, changed her, made her grow up. I don't want there to be a pause or a linger, I want the whole truth. “Is there something more to the story?” I ask as I glare at Kym. Kym shrugs. “Well he didn't like it;” she then adds before she sucks in a breath and gulps. “In fact he told me to act my age;” she tells before she shrugs. I glare at Kym for a moment more, and then I slowly inquire for more. “But he walked away okay, right?” I ask as I dust the flint of curiosity from my mind. “I walked away;” tells Kym before she smiles. I shrug, the event seems to have been a brief one - however Kym seems disturbed; she crosses her arms and begins to shiver, and I watch her closely. “Isn't there a heater inside?” asks Kym. “It is eighteen degrees;” I tell her. “Still!” gasps Kym before she stands. “This house has draft!” she adds before she leaves. I sit and wonder about Kym as I glare at the closed door she has exited. I wonder about Lachlan and how his invitation has brought Kym down to a new level of mature. I don't dwell for long as the story seems fairly ordinary, so I pick up a book and read. Mum, dad, brother, all return home and we have a family dinner. Kym tells our mother Charlotte how she was asked out, and Charlotte smiles and tells her she must be growing into a special young lady. Kym smiles, however as she looks back to her plate her smile breaks - I find this most annoying and I kick her leg to get her attention. Kym kicks me back and we giggle, however there is still strain, and I ache to pick at it until it disappears. The next morning I walk with Kym to school, and on the way I urge her once again to tell me more about her and Lachlan. Kym rolls her eyes as she glares at me. “What more can I say?” she gasps as she shrugs. “He is a jerk and I told him to leave;” she says. “I thought you were hiding something about it;” I say. “You seem sad;” I add. “Well he threatened me as I walked away;” tells Kym. “He told me I was dead;” she adds. “I just walked away and forgot about it, it's all fine;” she tells. “I see;” I mutter as I frown. “I don't like people who say those things;” I add. “Well it happens, people are mean;” mutters Kym. “They want to hate you and they do, and if you don't walk away then there is trouble;” “I know;” I add as I glare at the street before us. “People can be stupid and ugly;” I say. “Be a range of off-coloured emotions;” I add. “They can!” gasps Kym as she laughs. “That's why we find someone we love and hold onto them!” she tells. “That's the honest way;” I try to let Kym's words sink into my brain - however they don't. At lunch I find Lachlan and I growl at him. “You had better apologise to my sister for having had threatened her!” I bark. Lachlan's friends hiss at me as he throws an unhappy face. I don't know what he is thinking, but his eyes narrow as his mind stays blank - he is the ultimate deception and there is spook in its presence. I step away as though I have swallowed a cough lolly. “I will;” I hear Lachlan say - however I don't care; I feel stupid for having had been so firm and I blame myself. After school I walk home alone. I feel at loss as I walk; it is as though I am the only person alive and I feel the cool wind chill me. I wonder what it is like to be the only person alive, and I don't want to ever think about it again as it chills me. “I want to get home and eat grilled sandwich!” I gasp before I step forward as fast as I can. At home I meet Kym who sits on the front porch. Kym glares at me and flinches, however after a moment she waves. “I forgot the front door key;” she sings as she stands. “I have it;” I declare before I open the door. Kym and I walk into the house and together we look at the foyer. We feel like ghosts who have wandered into the mortal realm, and we feel anything but comfortable. I barge through the house to the kitchen - Kym follows me as though she is scared. We stop in the kitchen and begin to talk as we make a meal, and together we sit on the couch to eat. “I love grilled sandwiches!” tells Kym as she smiles. “I like it too!” I say before I bite into my sandwich. Kym rolls her eyes to me and she grins. “Lachlan found me and told me to tell you that you are a hard, cold, mean, person;” she says. I look to Kym and smile. “Really? I just asked him to apologise for having said something mean to you;” I declare. “Well he did apologise;” tells Kym as she shrugs. “Then he asked me out;” she adds. “He said he wanted to walk me home and he did;” she adds. “Then he gave me a mobile and told me it had his number on it;” she mutters before she pulls a mobile out from her pocket. “That was nice;” I say as I glare at Kym. “So you are dating him?” I ask. “I don't know;” tells Kym as she rubs her fingers through her hair. “I just let him walk me home and he gave me this phone to call him;” she adds. “He said he's paying for the credit, I can use it any time I want;” she says. “But I have to use it to only call him;” she adds. “That was nice of him!” I cheer as I look at the mobile. “I don't know how much I want to know him, but he wants to know me;” tells Kym as she smiles. “He wants to know me, and he gave me a mobile so I could know him;” she mutters as she thinks. “I don't know who he is, but he seems serious;” she adds as quiet fills the air. “I am glad;” I say. “Your first boyfriend;” I declare. “Yes;” gushes Kym before she gasps. “Who knew?” she asks before she turns her head to the television to watch it. I feel that there is something more under Kym's mind, however I let it go. I smile for her good luck and then I eat my sandwich, however every now and again I look to Kym and when I do I notice she holds rigidity. I go to bed and I think about Kym - she seems different and it disturbs me. I don't want to interrogate her, but sometimes I notice she seems unlike herself. I watched her speak to Charlotte about Lachlan, and Charlotte cheered as Kym stood behind her own shadow. I wanted Kym to say more, however she didn't say anything at all she just sat on whatever was wrong until I wanted to scream for her to confess or disappear. “I hope I haven't pushed Kym towards the wrong direction;” I mutter before I close my eyes. I walk with Kym to school and then I head off to class. On the way I glance at Lachlan and when I do he pulls a face before he turns his back to me. I am evil and corrupt, and I don't care; I felt he had been rude and I told him to say sorry, and he had - I am the victor, I am the level to push things in the right direction; without me Kym wouldn't have gotten her apology. “I just hope I didn't push her into accepting a date!” I gasp inside of my mind as I head off to class. I walk on my guilt as I walk around time. In the afternoons I look at Kym, and sometimes she talks, other times she doesn't. I walk in a circle where I am unsure, and I put fire on my mind every-time I look around and see a face I know. I want to say sorry, however I don't know for what; the world seems different and I feel as though it has changed. Two weeks later Kym knocks on my door, sits on my bed, and she smiles. I look a her - she looks cold, and I wave as though she may be lost. “Hi;” I mutter as I glare at Kym. “Hi;” she says as she pushes a smile. The smile cracks Kym's lips and she pouts as she fingers her lips with a light press. I look at Kym and I force myself to smile. “How are you?” I ask. “Fine;” tells Kym as she looks at me. Kym is lying; I can tell from the flinch under her eye-lids that she is lying. I glare at her and expect her to say more, but she just looks at me with a covered stare. “What do you want?” I ask. Kym shrugs and she glares out the window. “I like the view;” she mutters as she sighs. “It is a nice view;” she adds. I nod and agree that the view is very nice. “Is there anything you want to talk about?” I ask. Kym smiles as she turns her eyes to me. She blinks and then she holds her chin up high. “I dumped Lachlan;” she tells. “You did?” I ask. “Yes, I walked away and he threatened me;” she explains. “I see;” I mutter as I frown. “Should I ask him to apologise?” I ask. Kym shrugs. “I doesn't really matter;” she tells me before she blinks. “I don't like him very much, and he didn't try to harm me;” she adds. “He just told me he would kill me one day;” she mutters. “I walked away;” “I will tell him to say sorry!” I declare as I grow a bead of hate that crawls through my spine. “Okay;” tells Kym as she shrugs. “But I don't want to see him any-more;” she adds. “I don't;” she sighs. I nod. I don't know what Kym is trying to tell me, but I push aside the confusion and tell myself to speak to Lachlan. The next day I walk up to Lachlan at school. He glares at me with ice-cold eyes as I stand in front of him. “You are going to apologise to my sister!” I declare. The group around Lachlan hisses and he narrows his eyes. “I will;” he adds as he glares at me. “I will; he whispers. I walk away felling as though the world has been made right, however I am wrong; the world has not been made right I have just stepped on it and told it what to do. At home I bite on my nails as I wait for Kym to return home from school. She comes home an hour late, and there she smiles as she sits on the lounge. “How are you?” I ask as I glare at Kym. “Fine;” tells Kym as she sighs. “Lachlan asked me to marry him;” she informs. “He did?” I ask as I glare. “I said I can't!” gasps Kym as she smiles. “I am too young;” she adds before she shrugs. “I thought you didn't want to date him;” I add. “I didn't;” tells Kym. “But I told Lachlan I was pregnant and he asked me to marry him;” she informs. “You slept with him?” I ask. “I did something that got me pregnant!” gasps Kym. “I thought I was fooling around;” she adds. “That's stupid!” I tell. “What are mum and dad going to say?” I ask. “They'll say I'm stupid!” gasps Kym as she looks to me. “I'll say I don't care;” she adds. “We were just fooling around like kids, I didn't know!” she tells me. “I didn't know!” she adds. “I'm only stupid;” she tells. “I didn't know!” “Okay!” I shout to shorten the conversation. “So you got knocked up;” I declare. “I don't know;” tells Kym as she shrugs. “It might be gas, I haven't been tested;” she mutters. “I feel fat and heavy after we mucked around;” she mutters. “It might just be bloat;” she adds. “Thank goodness!” I declare as I lean back. “I can relax;” I say. Kym smiles at me and then she glares. “I feel better!” she adds. “I have nothing more to say;” she tells me before she walks into her room. I feel good and I watch television until our parents return home. I look at them like a kid, and Charlotte yells at Kym as she asks for a pregnancy test. The secret inside Kym has been exposed and Charlotte can only scream and lecture until her breath becomes bruised. I shiver and cover my ears with headphones, and then I close out the world as it turns from calm to stressed. Later that evening Kym creeps into my room and smiles. “I am not pregnant;” she declares. “It was just gas;” she adds. “Thank goodness!” I gasp as I turn to face Kym. “I would have blamed myself forever!” I add. Kym shrugs and then she turns her head to look out the window. I look out the window too and shiver - the world seems dark and deadly, and it scares me; I close the curtains fast! “The world can go back to normal now then;” I state as I look to Kym. “Yes;” she smiles. “Normal;” she adds before she rolls her eyes. Kym looks tired and I am too tired to notice what her tiredness might mean. “Let's call it a night!” I gasp as I place down my pen. “Let's;” tells Kym. “See you tomorrow;” she cheers. “I will;” I add before I wave. Alone again I feel as though my heart is running cold; all I can feel is stark emptiness. I look around and see black; I can't run, the shadows make me want to scream. I stand with nothing, and I slip into bed as I call myself a ghost - however I don't disappear, I just fall asleep.
Saturday, 10 August 2013
Meeting Life And Trouble
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