Distressed

I think I am still pretty distressed. I feel it and sometimes I feel traumatised even when I know I have been but haven't realised it.  It makes me feel low not being able to get myself out of the poverty fix.  I feel like I am poor and know it.  Can't see any way around it. I think of starting my own business - but I can't afford a real one, and I am already doing everything I can... art, Avon, selling... it's all making me money every week, but not like the amount I want or need. But I still keep trying.